The Purpose of Consciousness

I am sitting in a dog park in St Albert. I took in 3 big breaths of N,N DMT. And while I didn't have some breakthrough experience of my ego dissolving and becoming some thing beyond my Self, I did have some epiphanies.

I am very preoccupied with consciousness and Self and awareness and intent lately, so I was trying to meditate on what Self is but had feelings of what I wanted to get from the meditation getting in my way... Then I thought what is wanting? When I want or hope for something what does that mean? It means that I think whatever I want will make my current experience better. Which implies that what I'm experiencing is not good enough. Or maybe it's not even good. Then I thought: what is goodness? What is good? What is being good? And as I tried to use language to describe good all that kept happening was this image of Jess would come into my mind and it pretty much yelled at me: THIS IS GOOD! And I knew what goodness was very profoundly for a moment there...

I knew what good was.

It wasn't just Jess, though for me she is a perfect example of what is good, it was the perception of a circumstance or thing or whatever.... It was the filter I put on something I recognize as bringing positive, expansive energy into my awareness. I understood that there is goodness outside of that awareness... But goodness is purified by noticing it. And I think that consciousness is the fundamental mechanism that allows all of the processes that make that happen.